When Life Doesn't Flash Before Your Eyes

At the moment that I was told that all I have worked for for the past 45 years of my life is over life didn't flash before my eyes...  I felt empty.

Why do we say that life flashes before your eyes right before you die?  What if the moment is full of emptiness?  What if all you feel is nothing followed by the realization that all you have done in your life had no meaning to most and the few that cared about you will feel inevitable pain of the loss and will have to live with that pain for as long as they are alive.  But you - you will have to move on on the new path that the Universe puts you on next.  Your soul will have to learn to move forward and let go.

I like good quotes.  I read a lot of uplifting quotes from so many people who try to spread joy and laughter in the lives of many.  I want to thank all those people for spreading positivity and kindness without asking for anything in return. 

The movie "Passengers" suggests that we make up our lies with pieces of the truth.  One could come to the conclusion from the further dialog that during the breakdown or breakthrough of our psychic maybe our theories of want to be truth have gone as far as they can.  Does that mean you have reached the end of your imagination?

What do you do next?  Gather yourself together one piece at a time and figure out for yourself when you are ready how to move forward.  Value of life cannot be taught it has to be lived to be understood.  Empathy is greater in those who have suffered.  Kindness is wider in those who lived through tremendous pain.  Forgiveness can only be experienced by those who have something to forgive.  And God can only teach us patience by testing it.

He who does not recognize his own mistakes cannot forgive the mistakes of others.  Who is to tell you that your dreams are not real and your reality is not a dream?  Only you can decide what's real or not for you.  You get to choose and accept your reality with every day being a blessing of a new life and a new beginning with all the infinite possibilities at play.  What can be greater than the love of your child?  Sharing that love with your child and being a part of their life. 

Child play or not, who says that life itself is not just play therapy for all the living acting out our fears, dreams and realities one play and one day at a time.  Long term goals?  Keep on living, keep on playing, hoping to see the bright future tomorrow.   Hoping to feel one's love, a hug of a loved one and see your children happy.  

Sometimes we do get stuck in a not so fortunate reality where every day is the same day and you can't seem to get through to the brighter future you see just a hand reach away.  Seems like in my reality my children are tangled in front of my eyes without the ability to actually touch them, reach them and be with them.  With the great desire to love them and with the great pain of not being able to be there for them, with not so alien forces keeping us completely estranged and away from each other, with every day being a living nightmare of pain.  How many of you have seen a vivid dream of seeing your child in pain, in danger and suffering and not being able to reach them, not being able to help? 

That dream has been my every day reality for almost a year now.  That dream has been taken out of control of my imagination and has been getting crueler and crueler with time.  That dream is ongoing and right now has no end in sight.  And not because my life is unmanageable, my life is very stable, predictable and has been very well managed.  The course of my life has been changed in one moment, and the people in charge of the situation are unwilling to let me move on.  I'm held a prisoner of one situation being used as a catalyst to destroy everything I love and hold dear by the powers greater than me.  

God works in mysterious ways and when the people do you wrong God can still turn it for good.  I am a true believer in the power of kindness and that bad things can and do happen to good people.  Is it for the purpose of testing our faith, building our courage or a higher purpose at play?  More than likely all of the above.  But we don't get what we cannot handle as after all we are all a part of a free immortal spirit of strength, will, power and love. 

With billions of people with infinite alternate realities of those billions of people you are bound to be caught by surprise once in a while and experience the feeling  of "at a loss".  Sometimes you can't break through the wall of judgement and you get stuck experiencing the nightmare someone has created to be your reality.  It can be very hard to break through to the person's soul if they just refuse to feel, refuse to be hurt and therefore refuse to love and forgive. 

I found that it is easier to get to the heart of the person with one on one personal off the record conversation.  Most of the people want to be good and then blame it on work or society their inability to be kind to others.  Speaking of excuses.... I see it as an excuse the followers use, who are following the wrong Sheppard. 

A broken heart takes time to heal, but the kind heart even if severely broken miraculously gets put together and remains accepting to receive more love.  Love one another as love heals the world.  Forgive those who hurt you.  Accept those that hate you.  And never give up the courage to promote kindness by staying firmly kind.

Promote Innocent Tears Act and positive change. 



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